Saturday, February 6, 2010
1st time I saw you, I saw you as a stranger.
2nd time I saw you, I remembered that you were the same person who I saw the first time.
3rd time I saw you, I knew now that you were part of the crowd I see everytime I see you.
4th time I saw you, I saw you once again, but this time I seemed to be interested in you.
5th time I saw you, I thought you were kinda hot, but the thought went away.
6th-10th time I saw you, I didn't care about seeing you anymore.
11th time I saw you, we were sitting next to each other in class, we didn't know each other well.
12th time I saw you, I started talking to you more frequently and we seemed to have some similar interests.
13th time I saw you, I remembered you were the same person who I thought was hot for a while.
14th-20th time I saw you, I started to have a stronger friendship with you.
21st time I saw you, I started to have feelings for you, but it was different this time.
22nd time I saw you, I remembered that you had the same personality of the same person I used to like.
23rd time I saw you, I didn't like you for your looks this time around, but I liked you for your great personality.
24th-27th time I saw you, I started opening up to you about my deepest secrets everytime we sat together in class.
28th time I saw you, I remembered that from the first time we talked to each other, it seemed obvious to me and my friends that you liked me.
29th time I saw you, I liked you more than ever because of your personality.
30th time I saw you, I sat beside you in class and we shared secrets again and my heart was crushed when you told me that you liked this guy and you wanted me to try to be his friend and then try to hook you guys up.
31st-35th time I saw you, I lost all thought of having a chance to be yours.
36th time I saw you, I planned of getting it over with because it's been a burden on me and telling the next time I see you that I love you.
37th time I would've seen you, I didn't see you in the crowd anymore.
38th time I would've seen you, I didn't see you in school because I was told that you sick.
39th time I saw you, I've now lost the courage of telling you that I love you now that the moment when I really wanted to tell you that I love you has passed.
40th time I saw you, I couldn't tell you how I really feel because it's been so long already.
41st time I saw you, I just try to make you happy now by my actions which gives me artificial happiness because I'm not always with you...
As this number increases, I will continue to regret everything. I will regret ever seeing you, meeting you, becoming your friend, liking you because you were good looking, loving you because of your personality, knowing that you liked someone else, not knowing that I didn't have a chance from the start, not knowing that you wouldn't love me the way I did to you...but I thank you for this. Thanks for changing my life for the better and the worse. BETTER: You made me feel special, I've become a better person, and I'm glad that I became your friend. WORSE: I didn't have the chance, I now have the feel that I lost someone I love, you will never know I love you, this will all be a burden, and part of me wishes we never became friends.
But I just want you to know this...I will ALWAYS love you.
the thing is...you never will
Dark
4:27 AM
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
In 2 years he will probably have forgotten about her.
In 2 years.. she will be with her friends hanging out, she has not heard or seen from him.
Randomly a friend mentions his name.
And the Incompletely girl with the fake smile is all of a sudden completed with the biggest grin on her face. Brightening up the room with that sparkle in her eye.
All her friends will notice.. and one will reply..
"You really did love him didn't you."
and of course she will reply..
"Yeah.. I Did!" then sofly whisper.."I still Do"
I sit alone,
my heart slowly breaking,
I'm just sitting there,
waiting, waiting for you
to come online, waiting for
you to say hello. But this
waiting, its hurting me
more then you'll know. You
don't understand how much
I smile when you reply.
You don't understand that
when you sign off, I feel
like crying. Inside
I'm dying when you aren't
there. && every night I
fall asleep to my favorite
lullaby, the memories of your
voice, your laugh, and when
I wakes up in the morning,
its like I've never left that
place. I go to work
hoping, praying, something
brings you back. My mood
depends on if I've seen you
today - if I have, everything
is perfect, but beware if I
haven't seen you, the pain is
too much to keep inside.
You're my world, its
true, and all I really want
you to know is I love you
with all my heart, but I'm
too shy, too afraid and too
deep in this to return. My
smile masks it so well, you'd
never even tell...but trust
me when I say it, I'm
fallen so hard for you, so fast.
I just your
average person, nothing special,
nothing great, but maybe one
day you'll come to understand,
I've loved you all along.
Dark
3:00 AM
Saturday, January 23, 2010
His side
-"tell her how you feel" is what my friends said
-so i picked up the phone
-called your house
-you answerd
-i said "i love you"
-and hung up right after
-the next day
-i told you it was a bet from a friend
-it was partly true
-but you didn't answer
-no sassy come back which you always do
-just stood there
-then walked away
Her side
-he called my house
-i picked up
-he told me he loved me
-then hung up
-the next day
-i was going to tell you i loved you back
-but you said it was a bet
-i had everything planned out
-every move i planned
-every word
-but when you said that...
-i had nothing to say
-i stood and watched you
-as you broke my heart
Dark
2:36 AM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Derick:
I guess we are the left-overs in this world.
Lily:
I think so...all of my friends have boyfriends, and we are the only the 2 people left in this world without any special person in our lives.
Derick:
Yup, I don't know what to do.
Lily:
I know! We'll play a game.
Derick:
What game?
Lily:
I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days
and you will be my boyfriend.
Derick:
That's a great plan, in fact, I don't have anything to do
much for the following few weeks.
DAY 1:
They watch their first movie
and they both are touched by the romantic film.
DAY 4:
They went go to the beach and have a picnic. Derick and Lily have their quality time together.
DAY 12:
Derick invited Lily to a circus and they ride through a Horror House.
Lily was scared and she thought she touched Derick's hand but she actually touched someone else's hand they both laughed.
DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road, and they asked for their future advice.
The fortune teller said:
"My darlings, please don't waste the time of your life, spend the rest of your time together, happily." Then tears flowed out from the teller's eyes.
DAY 20:
Lily invited Derick to go to the hill
and they saw a meteor; Lily mumbled something.
DAY 28:
They sat on the bus, and because of a bumpy road Lily gave her first kiss to Derick by accident.
DAY 29:
11:37 pm:
Lily and Derick sat in the park where they first decided to play this game.
Derick:
I'm tired Lily...Do you want anything to drink? I'll buy you one...I'll just go down the road.
Lily:
An Apple Juice, that's all. Thank you.
Derick:
Wait for me.
20 minutes later
A stranger approached Lily
Stranger:
Are you a friend of Derick?
Lily:
Yes, why? What happened?
Stranger:
A reckless drunk driver ran over Derick, and he is in critical condition in the hospital.
11:57 pm:
The doctor walked out of the emergency room; he handed Lily an apple juice and a letter.
Doctor:
We found this in Derick's pocket.
Lily reads the letter and it says:
Lily, These past few weeks, I realized you are a really cute girl, and I am really falling for you-your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game. Before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life.
I love you, Lily.
Lily crumpled up the paper and shouted:
"Derick! I don't want you to die-
I love you; remember that night when we saw a meteor and I mumbled something. I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and that we would never have to end this game. Please don't leave me Derick .. I love you! You can't do this to me!"
Then the clock strikes 12...
Derick's heart stopped pumping...
It was the 30th day.
Dark
1:40 PM
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Today a day off from work. Lol. Nothing better to do so come here blog. Anyway, I have started working since last Saturday. 1st day was ok, juz that my partner never teach me anything. Juz keep asking me do what do what. ==''. Then 2nd day was not so good. Communication fail 1. 1 person ask me do this then other person ask me dun care him juz do what she say. =='' Go die lar, want me listen to who. 3 people asking me do different things at the same time. Then worst day is yesterday, broke 2 plates. =='' Carried oval tray with things on it and very heavy then carried for at least 10 times carry liao still need serve food, my partner so damn slow lar. I serve finish 2 tables she still serving the 1st 1. Next time I go pick up food i stroll there stroll back. =P But need see who my partner 1st. Lol. Yesterday 3am then go sleep. Lol cant sleep although i felt tired. Tmr work hope wont break any more plates. Lol. But break also dun need pay, dun care lar. Lol
Dark
3:13 PM
Friday, December 4, 2009
Been a while since i last posted. So lets talk about yesterday as it is still early in the morning so nothing much happened for today. Yesterday morning went kallang to learning coxing from Raymond. Lol. Then after that Raymond brought me to eat and then go to Expo to collect his things and then to Water Venture at lakeside. After that we went to watch New Moon at Jp with some other dragonboat friends. And back home after that. So thats all for yesterday. Lol. Tmr i will be starting to work so wont be posting much.
Dark
9:32 AM
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Hehe. Today nothing better to do. Went to youtube and learn some Korean language. The so called alphabet of it is so funny to pronounce. Know how to write my name. But my computer dun have the thing to type Korean one. Dunno where to find it. So cant type out. Even if have i think i also dunno how to type it out. Lol. I managed to copy some words from some websites. 사랑해요 [Know the meaning?] Tell me if you know. :)
Dark
5:40 PM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Phew. Finally done editing templates and all that. ==''. Took up around 3 hours to complete it. Today as usual a boring day. No work no games no nothing. Will be going for registration for work this coming Saturday. Wonder how is it like. My skin is starting to come out already cuz of the sunburn last week. What should i do during the next 4 days? Play basketball? Sleep the whole day? Learn my guitar?[If only someone could teach me]. Shall stop here for today. Nothing else that i could write cuz today is really a boring day and it will be boring until Thursday or even Friday, depends.
Dark
11:06 PM
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Am here to revive my dead blog. Lol. Let see what should I blog about. Lets talk about graduation night/dinner or whatever u called it. Its fun? Lol. Our last gathering. Not including the day we go back for our results. Then went to play bowling after that and taxi home. Back to today then, went for Singapore River Reggata. Lose until quite jialat? Nvm bah cuz this is my first race with the Dragnix team. Anyway nice job guys. Without the 5 sec penalty would be much better =P. Lol. Now watching 我猜. Cuz nth better to do liao. No games no nth. Hehe only got facebook's mousehunt. 1 click every 15mins. ==''. Ok done with today's post. Shall update when I'm free.
Dark
12:09 AM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Finally a time to update my blog. Yesterday have dragon boat training and watched a lot of videos about dragon boat. After training we went to the swing there and play. Then we swing until very high then the stand of the swing go up and chenghui scream so loud then we keep laughing. Enough about yesterday, back to today.
Nothing much intresting in school except miss kang dun want shake hands with me... and later at night going alvin's house to photo copy something. Currently playing runescape and dota cuz dunno what game to play already...
Dark
4:51 PM
