Saturday, February 6, 2010
1st time I saw you, I saw you as a stranger.
2nd time I saw you, I remembered that you were the same person who I saw the first time.
3rd time I saw you, I knew now that you were part of the crowd I see everytime I see you.
4th time I saw you, I saw you once again, but this time I seemed to be interested in you.
5th time I saw you, I thought you were kinda hot, but the thought went away.
6th-10th time I saw you, I didn't care about seeing you anymore.
11th time I saw you, we were sitting next to each other in class, we didn't know each other well.
12th time I saw you, I started talking to you more frequently and we seemed to have some similar interests.
13th time I saw you, I remembered you were the same person who I thought was hot for a while.
14th-20th time I saw you, I started to have a stronger friendship with you.
21st time I saw you, I started to have feelings for you, but it was different this time.
22nd time I saw you, I remembered that you had the same personality of the same person I used to like.
23rd time I saw you, I didn't like you for your looks this time around, but I liked you for your great personality.
24th-27th time I saw you, I started opening up to you about my deepest secrets everytime we sat together in class.
28th time I saw you, I remembered that from the first time we talked to each other, it seemed obvious to me and my friends that you liked me.
29th time I saw you, I liked you more than ever because of your personality.
30th time I saw you, I sat beside you in class and we shared secrets again and my heart was crushed when you told me that you liked this guy and you wanted me to try to be his friend and then try to hook you guys up.
31st-35th time I saw you, I lost all thought of having a chance to be yours.
36th time I saw you, I planned of getting it over with because it's been a burden on me and telling the next time I see you that I love you.
37th time I would've seen you, I didn't see you in the crowd anymore.
38th time I would've seen you, I didn't see you in school because I was told that you sick.
39th time I saw you, I've now lost the courage of telling you that I love you now that the moment when I really wanted to tell you that I love you has passed.
40th time I saw you, I couldn't tell you how I really feel because it's been so long already.
41st time I saw you, I just try to make you happy now by my actions which gives me artificial happiness because I'm not always with you...
As this number increases, I will continue to regret everything. I will regret ever seeing you, meeting you, becoming your friend, liking you because you were good looking, loving you because of your personality, knowing that you liked someone else, not knowing that I didn't have a chance from the start, not knowing that you wouldn't love me the way I did to you...but I thank you for this. Thanks for changing my life for the better and the worse. BETTER: You made me feel special, I've become a better person, and I'm glad that I became your friend. WORSE: I didn't have the chance, I now have the feel that I lost someone I love, you will never know I love you, this will all be a burden, and part of me wishes we never became friends.
But I just want you to know this...I will ALWAYS love you.
the thing is...you never will
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